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March 28th, 2010
01:09 am
Man. How life has changed. If the Livejournal me would know me now, we just wouldn't know what to do with each other. Remind self to tell children that men suck and your twenties suck. Also, shit gets weird and your parents automatically feel smothering. LIFE IS FUCKING WEIRD. I can't believe I just updated my Livejournal. Someeeebody needs more friends.
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February 19th, 2009
01:59 pm
Have you read my blog yet?
Http://hatezorlovez.blogspot.com
Do it. Now, plz.
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February 5th, 2009
December 30th, 2008
03:31 pm
Is anyone else as excited as I am that there is only one day left in this stupid year?
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December 18th, 2008
04:46 pm - WEIRD.
Lately I've been really caught up in the way I see people. It's that dimensional thing. You know, you see someone in one light, the same lady at the grocery store, the same dude that's always being a drunk asshole, etc., and normally that's the way they stay (or at least for me that's how it is). I've been not just seeing them in that same light and just sort of seeing everything like a child. Everything is taking on new meanings and perspectives. I care and don't care about things I've never even thought about. I always thought growing up was something that would be easier and would only affect, say, your wants and needs(kids, bills, job). I had no idea it would be something that hit on such a level. It's sort of overwhelming. I don't miss being young because I miss being carefree and having friends, I miss being young because I genuinely thought everything was certain and I knew it all. Relationships with people are some of the weirdest things in the world. Not just the romantic kind, all of them. Do you really need anyone? And if you don't really need anyone, why does it hurt so bad when you have no one? When did I get so insecure? I wish that settling on the answer "There is no answer" would suffice, but it just won't. Then, I think who really cares about answering questions because those answers will never matter. This is what I think about all the time. No one will read this, and no one will follow, but damn, I'm tired of thinking all the time.
On a lighter note: I had a really good birthday. 21 is the only age thus far where I've sort of felt an instant change. Not much, but something.
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December 5th, 2008
03:50 pm
I know that I whine about stuff a lot, but this is true:
this place is fucking dull.
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November 29th, 2008
12:45 pm
I don't know if it's one of those self-fulfilling prophecy type things, but every other year seems to suck pretty bad for me. 2006 sucked, 2007 ruled. 2008 sucks, so what does that mean for 2009? Yeah, let's hope!
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November 15th, 2008
01:30 pm
I don't know how I feel about it anymore.
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November 11th, 2008
11:23 pm - What the fuck?
So, I was just reading my old Livejournal posts looking for something (at this point I don't even remember what), and I started just reading through and after sometime, I came to the realization: I don't even remember the person that wrote those, nor do I ever remember feeling that optimistic. This is the saddest thing I have ever felt. I, although some of you may not know, have gone through a lot of shit in the last few months. While going through all this, I have tried my best to not have these hopeless feelings overtake who I always thought I was. Optimistic, somewhat goal-oriented, fun lover, people lover, etc. I need this back. Right now, and for the last good while, I've felt like there is nothing to look forward to in life. I feel like I am constantly looking backwards for happiness, and that all the future holds is mundane life and work. Work is the ultimate soul killer. I have got to do something to fix this. I need the life revived in me. I am too young to feel this hopeless.
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November 1st, 2008
06:09 pm
I would just like to say if you knew me then, you don't know me now.
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